Dear Ruby,
Hey sweetheart! I hope you are doing well. I’m struggling a little after this last court date. I know I said I would avoid discussing the custody hearings but after hearing what the Guardian Ad Litem had to say “on your behalf” I feel there are some things you should be made aware of.
First, I want you to know that everything I’m saying has paper documents to back them up. The lady who came to talk to you and your mom said in court that you suffer from all types of mental health issues, ones you didn’t have in the almost 8 years I had been in your life. They say you have severe anxiety, social anxiety, you have periods of time where you are non-verbal, you would hide under your desk at school (uncle Codie and I used to do the same thing, don’t feel bad), and that you have “autism spectrum disorder” whatever catch-all that is supposed to be.
They said that you do not want to see me, not even on video visits, and you do not want to communicate with me. I have to admit that hurt, and I don’t mean a little! I want you to know I will always try to be a part of your life, if you are mad at me, I accept that. You are my daughter and I will never not love you.
The lady said something else that blew my mind. She said “Ruby’s last memory of her father is him coming out of the house yelling while her mother pulled out of the driveway and him shooting at the vehicle they were in.” This was so unbelievable to me because it isn’t true. This had been said around you so much that you’ve graffed it in as your own memory. I can show you your mother and brother’s statement from the night of my arrest that states something vastly different happening.
One day, you’ll see the truth and as much as it hurts to know that I may have to wait to see you, God will open your eyes and our relationship will be restored.
Ruby, I’m not a perfect man. I used to be even worse, but I’ve always been a good father to you. There were times where I slacked at being a good role model and provider for my family, but I always cared for you, protected you, and was good to you.
When all is said and done, I will have every document and transcript available for you to see the lies and deceit brought forth. No matter what, I’ll continue to pray that we are reunited, that you and Raiden are healthy, happy, and well taken care of, that you both come to know Christ as you Lord and Savior, and that you have the joy and wholeness that comes from a relationship with Him. I also pray that you mom comes to know Jesus and accepts Him as well and gets to know true happiness, that He turns her heart of stone into a heart of flesh.
I love you and miss you
And remember God made you special and He loves you very much.
Love,
Daddy
Letters to Ruby 