Dear Ruby,
I wanted to write you a quick letter about the dream I just woke up from.
I was given a video tape and as I was watching it I saw all these clips of you growing up. Mostly at birthday parties, sometimes family events, I assume the people recording them were Colby’s grandparents. I remember one clip you were really sick in bed your mom and some other people were nursing you back to health but you were delirious and hallucinating. That one really made me upset because I knew I was supposed to be there for you.
The last clip was my grandparents setting there talkin with Colby’s. So I jumped on a bicycle (idk why a bike) and rushed to my grandparents house and asked Grandpa Tom if he remembered being there and he told me “yea, they are good people.” I woke up right after, I was sad for all I missed in your life, happy I got to see you were safe and growing up well, and I was comforted by what my grandpa told me about the people you’re around.
Ruby, I know my choices and bad decisions got me where I am, but know I’m not actively choosing to be absent from your life. In fact I have been doing everything I can think of to communicate to you. I’ve also been doing all I can to establish some father and child relationship rights in order to be able to contact you.
I pray that you will forgive me from being absent for the last four years, it has been torturous for me. I will never give up on trying to be a part of your life.
Remember, God made you special and He loves you very much!
Love,
Daddy
Letters to Ruby 