Dear Ruby,
Hey honey! I hope everything is going well for you as summer is wrapped up. I know I just wrote to you, but my roommate transferred out this morning and I was reading about these kids at an Angel Tree camp. I broke down crying. Not for self-pity or what I’ve missed out on by being locked up, but for you. It is not fair that you’ve missed out on so much time with me, and not just me, but your Grandparents, your uncles, your cousins, everyone. You’re the silent victim of this whole situation, the feud between your mother and I shouldn’t fall on you. I swear to you, once this is behind us, I’ll never be taken from you again.
It is important that you know that my life before, including the relationship I had with your mother, was not stable. It was not founded with God’s teachings to stabilize it. In Luke 6:46-49, Jesus tells us that we are to listen to His word and live according to it and our foundation will be upon a rock. If we don’t heed His word, it is like building our foundation on sand. When the storms come, it will wash away.
I lived for along time with my back toward God. Without God, life comes with depression, emptiness, loneliness, feeling like I’m not good enough, etc. It also comes with addiction and other sinful behavior. This time away from all the distractions in everyday life has given me what I needed to build a new life with Jesus as the cornerstone in the foundation. I know I still have work ahead of me, but now I can rest easy knowing, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)
I love you, Sweetie. I’ll be home soon.
Love,
Daddy
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